oops-- it's been almost 2 months. haha!

Starting weight: 155
Last weigh in: 142-143
CW: 139 .. almost there!! my goal is 135 and that's it. once i reach 135, i am not gaining or losing a lot more. =]

you know what's so sad? i actually DON'T have any updates. ummm i got accepted in my university's college of education. ummm.. been busy with school but it's not so bad. i still see my friends every weekend. ummm... ben (gym eye candy) is a lot more comfortable with me now. we talk a lot when we see each other but i have no other interest in him. i mean he's so gorgeous and all but he can't hold a conversation and he does not make me laugh. ehhh.. he's very nice though!

that's it! either i have a boring life or i just have a nice balance of things. hahaha

Oh my goodness -- I haven't been here in awhile. It's funny how a lot of things can happen from the last time I blogged. I am such a BAAAAAD blogger. *lol*

- School's going well so far. :)
- Starting weight: 155
   Last weigh-in: 145
   Current weight: 142.2 Yay! (For now, I'm aiming for just 2 more lbs. to lose. Then I'm just gonna maintain for awhile)
- I just had my birthday on the 22nd this month. I'm 23! :) I had a party with my closest friends and we had sooo much fun,
- Ben (eye candy at gym remember Herb? *wink*) and I FINALLY exchanged numbers. I think it's only cos I lost some weight.. chhaaa! But he only asked for my number cos I invited him to my party. hahaha.. He didn't go but he DID call to greet me though. That was nice of him ..
- My ex-boyfriend. I'm sure you remember him. "Oh I'm leaving to Seattle in a few months to go to school but I'm not gonna get a new gf or anything" then BAM! A month or two later, new gf! Anyway, I saw him a few weeks ago and I said hi. He said I look good (cchhh) etc etc. I saw him yesterday too......

     We talked like old friends. It was good -- we caught up with each other, cracked jokes, and laughed. I was gonna leave cos I had class when he said, "Hey, I'm sorry though." I just started waving my arms around and said "Forget about it. It was a looong time ago. Nevermind!" but he continued to apologize. Man, he was gonna make me cry! I started tearing and I covered my face. I mean it's so nice of him. He didn't have to do that. I was just glad that there was no grudge between us and I really wasn't expecting an apology from him. But he did it anyway. He said," I'm sorry. I know how you felt because I felt it too. Isn't it funny how the world works? Karma." I don't know what happened between him and his girlfriend but at least he understands now. That was nice of him though, don't you think?

 See??? If only he just stuck to me! *Lol* just kidding :)

SW: 155
CW: 145

     Okay so my weight wasn't 143. The scale WAS off. Hahaha Well 145 for the past two weeks (or from whenever the last time I blogged) isn't too bad.

     I started class last week! I was kind of nervous because I wouldn't really know anyone in my new major (elementary education) but I was pleasantly surprised to find old friends/classmates in all my classes. Yay! I met some new people too, thank goodness my shyness didn't get in the way. :)

     Oh yeah, my membership expired at my gym and I can't afford to renew it. Those guys there have been letting me come in for free but then lately I've been feeling guilty about freeloading. I even have weird dreams about it. Hahaha. At my college, I've always known they had some weights and machines but the ones I've seen are rusted and gross. Eeee.. risk for tetanus alert! However, I didn't know there was another "fitness room" with a couple of cardio machines and other weights that I can use. 2 out of 4 treadmills are working. 1 out of 2 stationary bikes are working. 1 stairclimber is available. It's okay I guess. I can always walk/jog/run around campus if anything. There's a chart I saw on the wall with suggested tracks to take if students wanna take a 1 mile, 1.5 mile, or 3 mile route. The only problem is that there are no light freeweights for women to use. Oh yeah, and there aren't that many machines to choose from :( There is no way I am gonna lift 50 lbs of rusted dumbells in each hand for bicep curls. Lol.. so sick.

FGS 

Meals
B: whole wheat toast, smart choice butter (just a little), apple, H20
L: leftover chicken (can't wait till that's finished), tomatoes, water
Snack: half an oatmeal cookie
            gatorade@ the gym
Dinner: 6 small sushi rolls, water

Gym
- 1 hour cycling class: the instructor said about 1,125 calories burned (!!!) but i probably burned from 700-800. I had a really good sweat though. He says I'm getting "hardcore" when I take his class. *lol*

Oh yeah... I checked my weight. Got over that stupid fear. And the verdict is....

CW: 144!!

* It was actually 143 but I added the extra pound. I don't think it's possible to lose 4 lbs in a week, especially since I've been eating yucky food. The numbers are great but I think I kinda lost 4 lbs too quickly. I'm aiming for 2 lbs max to lose per week. Thinking about it now, I think that may be wrong. I'll double check tomorrow. =P

Starting weight: 155
Last weigh-in: 146
Current weight: 143-144
Ultimate goal weight: 135ish

Meals
Brunch- leftover bbq ribs
Snack- reese's chocolates
Dinner- leftover chicken
Snack- none

     I didn't eat that much but my meals were sooooo unhealthy. I honestly gotta work harder. This whole week, it has been extremely hard for me to resist temptation. Whoppers, chips, chocolates. Maaaaannnnn. I'm scared to weigh myself so my plan is to be good from now on and weigh myself next week.  I need to start eating more fruit and veggies. Maybe later I'll have an apple or those berries in the freezer. 
     Oh yeah, in the past my problem with the whole dieting thing was rice. Sheesh! I don't think I could eat meat without rice. Aaaand I'd have a lot. Like a lot a lot (note: emphasis on "a lot"). You get the picture. Anyway, at first I had the hardest time cutting it. I'd cheat every so often and I'd even have seconds. But I guess I got used to it and now I could eat stuff without rice at all. That's a big accomplishment for me. So proud of myself! If I could kiss myself, I'd do it.

.... Or maybe not. Eew, that's sick.

   Soda intake was cut too. Sure, I'd have some sips but I can't remember the last time I finished a can/cup. Current goal: first lessen the beer, then completely quit. Lol That's only a problem when I go out. From now on, one glass of wine only OR one Bud Light only OR good old H2O. :) I can do it. I know I can.

Gym
- treadmill for 20 minutes: easy walking = 100+ cals only
- stationary bike for 40 minutes: random mode = ???

     My workout today was so panty. An hour cardio all together and my sweat was only mediocre. Hahaha. I'd have worked out harder but my muscles are aching from yesterday's class.  I wasn't actually planning on working out today but from my experience, when I don't work out at all I end up binging.

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1. Mom just told me my face is s m a l l. "Are you eating??!".. Holy crap, she should see me eat.
2. You know how people you often see don't notice the changes?  When people would tell my friend Apple that I lost weight, she'd just say "I guess, I don't know. I always see her!". But last night she saw me and she goes, "You did lose weight! I can see it in your arms". Yay! I thought I could see it in my arms but I wasn't sure. You know how people like mel probably have distorted images of ourselves! Lol But yeah, she made me feel sexy. Hahahaha.. Crazy.

Meals
Brunch - chicken and fried rice, radish
Snack -  none
Dinner - fish, brown rice
Snack -  TBA

Gym I feel like I didn't work out hard today. Nevertheless, I sweated a lot so I should be fine. :)
- 15 minutes strength training (biceps & triceps only)
- 15 minutes plyometrics
- 10 minutes stairclimber : only about a 100 cals. (the guy next to me smelled like fried fish, i had to get off immediately! sorry, but it was true..blech.)
- 40 minutes elliptical trainer (gluteal mode): 350 calories

     I went out last night with two of my guy friends from elementary. It was my first time to see them in about 3 years. It was fun! We just kept laughing at anything. By the end of the night, they told me "You look like a girl, but you're like a guy." At first I was a little offended. But then they explained that it's easy to joke around with me, that I understand their humor, and I don't find their "male tendencies" weird or whatnot. I get that a lot though. "Oh you're one of the boys" or "Yup, you can hang with us guys". No wonder most of my close friends are guys. Lol.. I just know that one day this whole "i'm a guy syndrome" will bite my rear. It's like a two-sided sword, if you know what I mean.

     So Herb, in reply to your (long) comment.. Haha!  Whichever way my "date" goes (whether or not he's interested in me, needs advice, or wants to get to know one of my girl friends), I don't think I'd really care. Not in a bad way of course, but I guess it's like whatever happens happens! I'm just curious... maybe it IS just to hang out with no hidden meaning. Lol  We'll see. I don't even know if the "date" is going to go through! But yeah, we'll see.

     Okay so I've been keeping up with my workouts and stuff. In fact, I'm sore right now from a class I took yesterday. Arghhhh that class was killer -- it seemed like we did everything! Did squats, push ups, ab work, biceps, chest, shoulders, triceps, dips. Haha! I feel really good though, like even though I eat crap sometimes I'm still okay. I decided to stop counting calories. I feel guiltier when I do that and plus it wasn't really working for me. I'll just stick to the same old "portion control". Yeah, I think that's a better plan.

[Edit]
Starting weight: 155
Current weight: 147 .. Yesssss

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     I have a question. It's gonna sound dumb, especially since I'm 22 years old and should know these things by now. But anyway, I saw my friend "John" for the first time in a month and he was telling me how I lost weight, how I look good, etc etc. He called me that same night and we talked for almost 4 hours. Crazy huh? He asked me to go to lunch initially for Wednesday but then he said, "Oh Mark (his friend) is gonna be with me." I replied, "So? Just bring him! It's not like I don't know him." John THEN goes, "I wanna go alone though. I don't want him to be there." He explained it's cos Mark might feel weird and that John and I haven't hung out in a long time. So... we made plans for Sunday when Mark isn't attached to his hip anymore (they're co-workers and best friends). The thing is, usually when I hang out with John our other friends are there too!  I told my other friends about it and they kept teasing me! Doooode. I'm lost now. They're telling me it's a date blah blah blah but I didn't think so. But then again, I'm lost when it comes to these things.  

     What did I get myself into? HERB!!!!!!!

     Nothing interesting happened today. I went to school, paid off my balance, registered for some classes online, read To Kill a Mockingbird, went to the gym. Aside from going to school and paying, it's a typical day for me. I love To Kill a Mockingbird - one of my faves. :) Each time I read it, I learn something new or notice something I never saw before. Anyway.. here's my food stuffy.

Brunch: spaghetti and meatballs
Snack: peanut butter, 1 spoon
Dinner: chopped chicken
Snack: none (yet! haha)

I know I had too much protein but I'm sick of the frozen berries that I have here in my house. Last night I even snacked on tomatoes, just tomatoes. Lol

Gym:
20 mins weight lifting (biceps, triceps, deltoids)
30 mins stairclimber = 246 cals
30 mins treadmill = 200 +
20 mins elliptical trainer =  200
plyometrics

That's it. One of my friends wants to run tomorrow morning but I'm not sure if I can wake up. I sleep at 2 am, wake up at 11 usually. Hahaha.